A few years ago my life was a mess. I was in a boring job working with a boss who thought he was God and a co-worker who was a complete narcissist. It reached the point where I had to take two weeks off on stress leave. At that exact moment in time, my husband of 32 years told me he didn't want to be married any more.
I remember reading a poem about longing, and relating to it so strongly because it held such a sense of peace and serenity - something I sorely needed at that time. I felt that when I had these things in my life again I'd be back on track and I'd know I'd made it through.
I'm happy to say that a lot of water has passed under the bridge since then, and I can look back and see how far I've come. The poem still strikes a chord with me and reminds me to appreciate what I have now and never take them for granted. I thought I'd break the poem down into five things that meant so much to me back in that dark time.
I long for a life I have control of.....
1. I want a space of my own, decorated with pictures that hold nice memories, soft pillows and scented candles. I want shelves filled with books of adventure and poetry.
2. I want to wake up every morning excited for what is to come.
I want to look up at the sky and feel the sun warm my face.
3. I want to go on walks and hikes and feel healthy and strong. I want to feel productive and satisfied. I want to take more photographs and take up new hobbies.
4. I want to become friends with more interesting people who will teach me about
places I’ve never been.
5. I want to feel alive!