Tuesday, 9 June 2015

permission to be happy

Get your happy on

I don't know if it is a leftover from my 'oldest child' childhood or whether there is just something missing in my general makeup, but I have trouble giving myself permission to be happy.


Over the last few weeks I've made some inroads into sorting out my life. I've left the job behind that was sucking the joy slowly out of my life. I've given up being secretary of our church because I was feeling a little taken advantage of. I've managed to not dive into any more volunteer positions that I would be doing just for the sake of no-one else wanting to do them. I've taken a step back from a lot of the things that were wearing me down and because of all of these things, every now and then I get this little feeling of happiness.

I can be strolling along or cruising around on my bike and I'll look at the beauty around me and think how fortunate I am to be a part of it. This feeling oozes up inside me and I feel a sense of peace and contentment.

I relish having a husband who has loved me for more than 30 years and who is willing to support me pulling the plug on my job and staying at home under his feet. I look at my home and think how blessed I am to have a house that is more than what I need. How fortunate am I to have a husband and a home that give me security and sanctuary?

My children are doing really well with their spouses and with their careers and are settled into their own lives. We went to visit them last weekend and it was such a pleasure to see they've grown into really fine adults who are a credit to us as their parents. There was that quiet feeling of pride and a sense of accomplishment that I felt as I sat sharing time with them.

I am slowly coming to realize that I am allowed to feel happy. I don't have to question why I feel that way or worry about it not lasting. I don't have to feel guilty because my life has (finally) settled into a place where there are no major upheavals and things are going smoothly. Maybe I can just give myself permission to feel this sense of happiness, to be open to feeling like I deserve to be happy and I don't have to justify it to myself or to anyone else.

There are no guarantees for tomorrow or for what will happen down the track - there is no guarantee that I'll find another job, or that things won't get a bit tight financially, or that there won't be clouds on the horizon. But maybe, just maybe, I can enjoy this time in the sunshine and savour the moment and feel this quiet happiness and just be thankful for it. I am truly blessed by God and by this life I am in the process of living.

#midlifeblog cresting the hill
a quiet happiness

15 comments:

  1. Just a lovely post. Yes- give yourself permission. So many people don't. Choosing HAPPINESS is a skill. There will always be another cloud over the horizon so why not savor the here and now. I think I'll join you in the sunshine.

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    1. Happiness is a lovely neighbourhood to live in - I think more of us need to spend some time there because it is much better than worrying about stuff all the time!

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  2. It sounds like you have found true peace of mind. Savour this time and I agree, what will be,will be and you can handle that when it comes. Beautiful post!

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    1. Hi Elena - thanks so much for stopping by and it is a really nice feeling to relax and enjoy rather than rushing or worrying :) Loving your blog too!

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  3. It sounds as if you have found a place of contentment. I hope it inspires others.

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    1. thanks Margaret - it is lovely to find some happiness and peace after pushing myself for so long!

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  4. Hi Leanne another lovely post and I'm glad you are feeling contented and happy. thanks for the reminder and also for sharing with us at #WednesdaysWisdom

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    1. Thanks Sue - love the Wednesdays Wisdom bloggers :)

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  5. I love this Leanna - why is choosing happiness so hard? I'm always waiting for something bad to happen - what I should be looking forward to is the good stuff! So glad you're finding your happiness!

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    1. My sentiments exactly Lana - I don't know where it comes from but I'm not playing the game anymore - I'm going to try and notice those happy feelings and appreciate them :)

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  6. Your post couldn't have come at a better time in my life. After making some major decisions recently about where I am headed, I was beginning to doubt myself. Your post has reminded me about the importance of doing things that make you happy and it is okay to do that. Thank you! Also - great to connect with a fellow West Aussie! Stopping by from Wednesday's Wisdom over at Nanna's Wisdom

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    1. Hi Kelly - I'm popping over to your blog - got to support the West Aussies! So glad that my post made you feel better about your choices. A while ago I would have said that happiness isn't all that important, but now I am a firm believer in finding some joy in your life choices!

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  7. What a blessing, Leanne! Yes, be happy. Be proud of who you are and your accomplishments. That is your mission on Earth.
    Thank you for joining #WednesdaysWisdom.

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  8. thanks for the affirmation Debbie - you are certainly a shining example!

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  9. I struggle with many of your same roadblocks. After realizing that in my funk I have alienated some of the people I wanted most to be closer to, I'm trying hard to follow in your footsteps. I'm encouraged to know how possible it is!

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