One thing I am learning as I take time out from the workforce is that it is okay to rest and revitalize. When you are continually busy on the treadmill of life you get out of practice at being still and letting life happen at its own pace.
As the days turn into weeks, I am finding a new rhythm and a new way of looking at the day. A new sense of it being okay to just take some time for me. A new opportunity to breathe and not immediately rush on to the next job or the next appointment. A new "me" is starting to emerge and I can feel the hamster wheel slowing.
It's a strange feeling letting days go by without achieving what the world would see as important. I am finding a new perspective on what actually is "important" when it comes to the bigger picture. The daily grind is a necessity to provide the bread and butter of life, but that doesn't mean that I can't take a step back from it and find a season of rest and refreshment. I'm reminded of the Ecclesiastes passage about there being a season and time for all things under heaven (my paraphrase!)
The world seems to be turning faster and so much more is expected of me (partly because I expect it of myself...) and it has been a really good opportunity to cast off some of those expectations and start living a life of community rather than a life of industry. I'm getting to know more people in my church because I have time to go to a morning tea that I would have missed because it was at a time when I used to be working. I have time to chat to my neighbours. I have time to invest in my friends. I have time to read and think and just "be". It is a pretty fabulous time of life - which has surprised me.
I think I was at risk of losing the woman I am in the hustle and bustle of keeping all the balls in the air. I've included a quote below that sums up the loss I was feeling. It's great to slow down and not only enjoy the scenery, but take stock of the journey and the destination and maybe change course a little so I arrive somewhere I'd like to stay for a while.