THAT'S A WRAP AND MERRY CHRISTMAS!

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IT'S A WRAP FOR 2020

Well, Christmas is just around the corner and the end of the year will be upon us before we know it. 2020 has crawled by at times, and flown by at other times. One minute we were in February and hearing about Coronavirus, then we were in March and completely locked down. Before I knew it, Easter had gone by without family or Easter eggs for the grandgirls.

We settled into our new normal here in Australia as Covid was kept to quarantined returning travellers in their hotel rooms, and life pretty much returned to normal. My heart broke for those who were living with huge numbers of new community cases, and those who lost family or friends from the virus. Things have certainly been uncertain and unsettled.

HOW DID YOUR WORD OF THE YEAR PLAY OUT?

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CHOOSING A WORD OF THE YEAR

Every January for the past five years I've chosen a word to focus on rather than getting tied to New Years resolutions. I love that it's more general and it prompts me to think about how I'd like to grow in the 12 months ahead of me - rather than pledging to do things that I might not achieve. 

As far as previous #WOTY's go, the first year I chose Release (so many things I needed to let go of), then it was Embrace (so many new things to open myself up to), then I moved on to Enough (being enough and having enough). I changed track with Rise (rising up from a difficult year) and followed that with More (becoming more rather than fading away to less). This year I found it really difficult to settle on a word - nothing felt right and I nearly gave it all a miss. Then at the last minute I stumbled upon this William Ellery Channing quote....

HEADING TOWARDS MY SIXTIES WITH SELF-ACCEPTANCE AND A SMILE

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WHAT AM I LOOKING FOR IN THE NEXT DECADE?

It was my birthday last month, and it was the last one in my 50's - yes.... I am now officially 59 and looking at finishing out another decade of life. I've been asking myself over the last few weeks, what it is that I want to set in place in preparation to embarking on my sixties. Basically, what ongoing issue do I need to finally get sorted?

I keep circling back to words like self-confidence, self-love, self-worth, and self-esteem, because I feel like I still haven't attained that inner sense of self-assuredness that I see in so many other women of my age. I can put on the mask and pretend to be confident, but underneath there's still that little voice in my head that tells me it's not real and I'm not comfortable in my sense of "self". I'm not sure what's lacking, but I'm planning on doing something proactive over the next year to finally step into being relaxed and confident in who I am - no more pretending.