I started blogging last year with the intent of getting a lot of stuff off my mind. There were things churning around in there and I wasn't a particularly happy person at the time. What a difference a blog makes!
I thought I'd unload some of that by writing it down and the simplest way to do that was to start a blog and get it off my chest. I hadn't the faintest idea about what blogging was or how to go about it, I just jumped in - googled it, picked a name off the top of my head and off I went. I was jumping all over the place with what I was writing about and never thought it would last more than a few weeks and certainly never expected anyone else to read it.
Again may I say "what a difference a blog makes!" Within a few months I had "met" some wonderful women and read lot of other midlife blog posts and been encouraged and motivated to pick myself up and make some changes. A drop of courage goes a long way and I can't believe how far I've come in such a short time. I keep thinking about that movie "How Stella Got Her Groove Back":
I've never seen the movie but I loved the title and I feel like my blogging is "how Leanne got her groove back" or as groovy Austin Powers (who I've also never seen a movie of) would say "I got my mojo back baby!" My marriage is stable, changing jobs saved my sanity and gave me the space to clear my head and not resent the loss of my husband's job any more. I'm too old to hold grudges, so friends who are less than friends are moved to the background and I'm embracing the friends that build me up and who are on the same journey. My kids are happy and I am finding where I fit in their lives and that they are happy to see me when I need a bit of "mother time."
All in all, blogging has been such a fun and empowering pastime and those few weeks have stretched to several months and I hope I can keep going for many more to come. Midlife is a lot better than I was giving it credit for. Sure there are bits that suck at times, but that's life and there is an awful lot of good stuff happening to outweigh the sucky stuff!