So, on that note, I thought I'd do an update on where things are with my new job now that I've been there for a few months and feel like I can take a breath and step back and look at where I am now compared to where I was when I started. I picked a few months as a marker because my probation period is over and they decided to keep me and I decided to stay for the long haul!
It was a very scary step leaving my last job - even though it was boring me to tears and sucking the life blood out of me, I hung on for dear life because I didn't have the confidence in myself to take a risk and leave the known for the great unknown. It had to get to the point where I hated being there more than I feared being unemployed before I took the leap out of my comfort zone and into the world of job hunting and starting afresh in a different workplace.
So, here it is four months later - in a new job, in a new field, with new people - a whole new world! My brain still hurts at times, but I have no regrets at all, in fact I am loving it! I have made plenty of mistakes - when you're new that tends to happen on a daily basis. The funny thing is that I was the only one bothered by it - no one expected me to be perfect and I had to learn to give myself a break and take it one step at a time.
I had butterflies in my stomach on the way into work every time for the first couple of months and I wondered if it would ever get easy. That's the thing when you're in a new world, it's all hard and you have to learn your way around things - which seems scarier when you're worried that you are "too old for all this new stuff". But you are never too old! New life skills are never a bad thing and a new job with new people, new tasks, new environment, new routines and extra days off(!) is all part of being alive and living for this moment and being the best I can be.
Seize the day and all that stuff - we're not getting any younger and we need to believe in ourselves more! I'm so glad I took the leap of faith - closed my eyes, held my breath and jumped - it's been worth every moment of the ride so far.