GLORIOUS UNEMPLOYMENTOh my goodness! As of this week I am officially no longer employed.....I'm working half time for a couple of weeks as part of giving in my notice and then by the end of May I will be jobless. Scary but liberating all at the same time!
I've thought about this on and off for the last couple of years and justified staying in my job for a multitude of reasons, but none of them have rung true for the last year or so. It came to a head when I had such a lovely break over Easter and the thought of going back was even more awful than usual. There just comes a point in your life when you say "No More!" and I'd obviously reached it! I've spent too long counting down the days til the next weekend was due and then trying not to think about when I was due back at work again before I could start my next countdown.
You can hold on to something too tightly because you are scared of what happens if you let go, and my job was my "something". It wasn't awful and it wasn't soul destroying....but it was becoming mundane and boring and 'same old, same old'. Time to move on and take a risk, time to jump ship and see what happens in the future. Time to let someone else be the responsible one for a change - or maybe we'll share the responsibility. I feel like a free spirit - I hardly recognize myself.
HOLDING ON VS LETTING GO
FILLING MY TIMEThe other question I had was how I would fill my time once I was a lady of leisure, but I seem to be getting invites to things left, right and centre. I've been invited to a craft group (Oh No! says the AntiCraft in me) but apparently I can come, drink coffee, chat and stay for lunch and I don't even have to pretend to do a craft - sounds good to me! Then there's the ladies bible study and there is a mentoring program at the local primary school who would love to have me come and spend some time with a student making them feel special. Add to that all the coffee and chats that I'm looking forward to, the books I can read and the jigsaws waiting to be done, and I should be able to keep myself out of trouble at least for a little while.
My neighbour, who took early retirement, is busy giving me advice on how to transition into this new stage of life - apparently he is an authority on the subject and I didn't have the heart to tell him that it would probably be quite different for me (especially as he had a million dollars in his bank account by the time he left compared to my meager bank balance) - at least he was kind enough to care. It's a very strange concept - having all day with nothing to do but enjoy it. Sitting and reading or watching TV instead of sitting and watching the clock, no more having my lunch break at the same time every day or fighting the traffic and all those traffic lights on the way home. No, instead I'll be strolling in the sunshine and thinking happy thoughts.