It's my birthday today - I had to pause to think how old I actually am - I'm sticking with "early 50's" for now because I still scrape in! Birthdays are a time of life where you stop and take stock of where you've been and where you're going.......and that's something that I'm still trying to work out. I know where I've come from but I'm still figuring out where I'm ultimately headed.
Things are different now, I still haven't figured out where I'm going, but I do know that I'm going - hopefully in the right direction and with a lot more zip and sass than I had in my 40's. I love the "delicious ambiguity" of my life (which would have scared me in years gone by) and the fact that I have lots of choices. I love that I'm married because I choose to be married, I love that I am a mother who has grown and flown her kids and I can choose to let them be free to find their way in life. I love that my friends are people I choose to be with, who are supportive and fun and not just people I have kept in my life because it was easier than letting go.
My birthday marks another year of living this second half of my life. I have no intention of doing anything profound to mark the occasion - I think I'll kick back, wear comfy clothes, eat junk food and wait for my fb friends to send me pictures of cats with birthday hats.
So here's to being a year older, a year wiser, a year sassier, a year of changing jobs, a year of starting a blog, a year of discovering new things. Now I'm really looking forward to what's ahead - I'm not treading water, I'm on that on that motorbike and heading off down a road that leads to new adventures, new friends, new experiences and becoming more "me"! Life is really good fun - I'm not sure if it's the age and stage or if I'm just a late bloomer and only now starting to figure out what a lot of women have known for generations. Happy birthday to me and here's to an exciting and engaging year ahead!