FIGURING OUT WHAT I WANT
A few years ago my life was a mess. I was in a boring job working with a boss who thought he was God and a co-worker who was a complete narcissist. It reached the point where I had to take two weeks off on stress leave. At that exact moment in time, my husband of 32 years told me he didn't want to be married any more.WHEN A POEM SPEAKS TO YOUR HEART
I remember reading a poem about longing, and relating to it so strongly because it held such a sense of peace and serenity - something I sorely needed at that time. I felt that when I had these things in my life again I'd be back on track and I'd know I'd made it through.I'm happy to say that a lot of water has passed under the bridge since then, and I can look back and see how far I've come. The poem still strikes a chord with me and reminds me to appreciate what I have now and never take them for granted. I thought I'd break the poem down into five things that meant so much to me back in that dark time.
I LONG FOR A LIFE I HAVE CONTROL OF.....
1. I want a space of my own, decorated with pictures that hold nice memories, soft pillows and scented candles. I want shelves filled with books of adventure and poetry.
2. I want to wake up every morning excited for what is to come.
I want to look up at the sky and feel the sun warm my face.
3. I want to go on walks and hikes and feel healthy and strong. I want to feel productive and satisfied. I want to take more photographs and take up new hobbies.
4. I want to become friends with more interesting people who will teach me about
places I’ve never been.
5. I want to feel alive!
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Amen to your list. All these are powerful tools to live a full life. And I want a full life. :)
ReplyDeleteThey are aren't they Lux? They just resonate so strongly in my heart - thanks so much for visiting xx
DeleteOh Leanne, what a thought provoking post. I sure hope and pray that you have or are nearly close to having all those things :) Thank you for partying with me at my very first Wednesday AIM Link Party. I shared your post on my social media sites.
ReplyDeleteHi Dee - I think I'm getting there - it's nice to feel like I have most of this tied with a bow these days - compared to when everything felt grey.
DeleteGreat list, Leanne! Sometimes the things we truly want, and need, are not "things" at all, are they?
ReplyDeleteYou're right Jean, the "things" are so often small comforts and connections rather than the big stuff aren't they?
DeleteGreat list and I actually set up an area at home just for me last week. It isn't decorated as I want it yet but I spend my mornings there and it has made such a difference. I love all of your suggestions and know that the time is now right to achieve them all.
ReplyDeleteI love that you're making your own little nook Sue. I have a Board on Pinterest where I save pictures of nooks that I love because there is so much you can do when you decide to claim a space as your own x
DeleteI have lost number two. It's something I realized a while ago – – almost 4 years back – – but I have yet to refined.
ReplyDeleteOh Carla, I'm so sorry to hear that - I really hope your mojo comes bouncing back in 2017 - you always look like you leap out of bed with a smile on your face so it mustn't be too far away :)
DeleteLove this Leanne! Glad you are becoming more of what "you" want and need...
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Renee - it's a good feeling to not be reading that poem wistfully any more :)
DeleteI like your five things!
ReplyDeleteI do too Paula - they just feel "right" to me :)
DeleteLove your list Leanne! You wish for the things money can't buy but that most important for a full, happy and most important productive life. I am especially drawn to #4. thank you for partying with us at #blogginggrandmothers. I hope t see you next week. I have shared this thoughtful post on my social media outlets.
ReplyDelete#4 resonates with me too Clearissa - I think because it's the biggest gift that blogging has brought me. All these friends I've made all over the world and their positivity and joy - what a blessing!
DeleteAll innocent, beautiful, spirit-enhancing wishes. May you achieve everything on it.
ReplyDeleteAnd me, too! :)
I'll wish it for both of us then Diane - none of them are big things and I think we've earned them - don't you?
DeleteAll the ingredients for a beautiful life. And it's yours for the taking. You generate so much of this!
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What a lovely thing to say - thank you so much Carol. I hope to keep them alive and well now that I've found them ;)
DeleteIsn't it always true that the best things in life are free? Too bad we sometimes spend some years of our lives not enjoying those things. I like your list -- thoughtfully laid out.
ReplyDeleteI just found each and every one of them held something of value to my heart Carol - they touched a chord and gave me a sense of peace and joy.
DeleteIngredients for a happy, fulfilling life. May you attain every one of them and much more!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much - I feel like they are developing and I'm not longing for them any more - just appreciating the fact that they are in my life.
DeleteThese are wonderful goals! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Monica - they are lovely things to aim for in this life we live aren't they?
DeleteYour list is something we all hope to achieve. Thanks for linking up with Blogging Grandmothers.
ReplyDeleteI would wish every single one of them to everyone Candace - it's about what comforts our soul rather than what fills our pockets isn't it?
DeleteWell, that sounds lovely. I hope you reach them all!
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Thanks so much Jenny - I'm getting there slowly but surely :)
DeleteAm loving all the aims especially 1 & 3 - I have an area of my lounge - well just a comfy sofa in the corner but I use it as my blogging area! 😊
ReplyDeleteI have a room set aside for "me" Linda - I don't use it much any more, but it's nice to have somewhere to put my stuff and not worry about it being too girly.
DeleteWonderful list! #s 2 & 3 are my favorites!
ReplyDeleteI like #4 the best - because blogging has fulfilled it 110% :)
DeleteThank you for partying with us at Blogging Grandmothers Link Party. I shared your post on my social media sites.
ReplyDeleteMy pleasure Dee - I love hanging out with this group x
DeleteIt's amazing how powerful visualization can be, Leanne. I'm so happy that you've seen it happen in your life - now may all you long for come true!
ReplyDeleteIt's so lovely to not yearn for these things any more Corinne. I remember being so sad and feeling like I'd never find them - now most of them are a part of my life - healing is an amazing thing.
DeleteWhat a heart felt post. Thank you for sharing this. I wish you only happiness in the future. Our world can sure be turned around on any given day.
ReplyDeleteThat is so true Pamela - I think we feel trapped when we are sad and low, but life moves on and if we put in the hard yards, then we can look back and see how far we've come.
DeleteSuch amazing visualization makes me wonder what my wishes would be. Yes! Happiness is the paramount need for life, and I am happy for you to have made these things your priorities.
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It's about what you feel deeply in your heart Menaka - some people aspire to huge things - when I was at my lowest it was comfort and love and friendship that I longed for. It is so good to look back and to have found so many of those things again.
DeleteSuch an awesome list - I hope you soon have all of them within your grasp and carry on developing them!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing over at Friday Frivolity :)
I feel so much further along the path these days Jessica - back when things were darker, these were little lights to aim for at the end of the tunnel. Now I feel like I'm back in the sunshine again :)
DeleteWonderful post
ReplyDeleteThanks so much - and thanks for taking the time to comment. I hope you come for another visit x
DeleteLeanne, this post made the most clicked list, be looking for a feature on Friday. Congratulations on consistently making this list.
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That's lovely to hear Kathleen - many thanks for featuring one of my posts again - love the Bloggers Pit Stop!
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